Boo! :))
After three months FINALLY
i felt that somehow i have managed to move on and continue with my life.
It was really HARD. Trust me. After months of going after him, making him stay, and trying to win him back. Atlast i realized he was not worth it, and that he was a jerk for letting me go.

I really have nothing to do. So im gonna share OUR story here. :))

He was my first boyfriend. We were together for three months. One problem we had was with his friend. They had something before but he explained to me that that was all in the past and that he LOVES me. So hindi ako nag pa apekto. I didnt mind it. Unfortunately he confessed to me that he still loves her. And so i asked him kung kanino siya mas masaya. He said "with her".
I dont know what to do. i just sat there and cried like a baby.
all he could say was he was sorry.
I didnt break up with him nor got angry with him.
I FORGAVE him. And blamed myself that it was my fault that it ever happened.

After a month, we broke up. He told me that he couldn't do this anymore and that he was sorry.
I never learned the real reason behind our breakup.
The first few days was miserable. i would cry whenever i remember all those things that we did.
But luckily after two months. I was feeling a little bit better.

Until i learned that he has someone new.
And there i hit rockbottom.
I cried and cried and ask myself why so soon.
It seems that nothing EVER happened between us.
It was like he never really cared.

And so i learned that he and his new girl have never even met.
Puzzled by their story, i really wanted to ask him what was happening with the both of them.
Alam ko kasi ayaw niya ng hindi sila nag kikita. Even in the past, he would get angry with me pag more than three days na kaming nagkikita.
The only problem is i was too scared.
So i asked my bestfriend to interview him.

And then a miracle happened.
Dahil dun sa mga sinabi ng bestfriend ko sa kanya.
He realized something.
This was the exact text message from him to my bestfriend:
"Waah,trish..all i want is to be loved by someone na tanggap ako..ung tipong ggwin nya lht 4 me..haist..ice(their twagan), c maiza lng gumawa nun.. :c pak, ako b nagsbi ng lht nang ito..tsk!"

And there it was. he said to my friend that he still LOVES me!
He called to my house..and said sorry for all the things that he had done.
He said na magbabago siya and he WILL come back for me.

Here was one of the conversations we had before getting back together.

maiza_619: orrrr. you could help me with this research :D:D kung okay lang :D:Do:-)
migzzgim: yah..
maiza_619: YEHEY! HAHA! THANK YOU SO MUCH!:D:D
maiza_619: >:D<>:D<>:D<
migzzgim: kaw pa..
migzzgim: kismet eh
maiza_619: NAKS!:">>:D<:-*:-* maiza_619: okay. so here's the thing maiza_619: kailangan nmin ng recommendation. maiza_619: we need to recommend na maganda basahin ung paper nmin and ndi cla mabbore while reading it. migzzgim: and?
migzzgim: anu ggawin ko sweet?
maiza_619: AWWW.
maiza_619: ahaha. gwa k ng recommendation telling kung anu ung pde nilang makuha sa paper nmin. kung gnu kaimportant un and ndi sila mabbore hbng nag babasa.
maiza_619: maybe this could help.:D
migzzgim: Oh d-d-d-dear!
migzzgim: yah,sweet..
migzzgim: im sure..
maiza_619: aw. THANK YOU SO MUCH SWEET:D
maiza_619: aw. piglet. haha.
migzzgim: dont mention it
maiza_619: okay. lpit na mtapos. whew.
migzzgim: bsta pagtapos mo usap tau huh?..
migzzgim: my all?
migzzgim: ..
migzzgim: :)
maiza_619: sure:D
migzzgim: tnx my eveything..
maiza_619: Gawrsh!

HE SEEMED SO NICE IN THAT.
HE called me MY EVERYTHING.
It was a big deal for me. :))

And he did came back.
So naging kami ulet.
On the first day that we have been together.
EVERYTHING WAS PERFECT.
as in everything :)

but after that day. It disappeared.
Hindi nya na ko nilalambing.
No more *HHHUUUGG!* [sob!]
Wala na lahat.
And so i asked him whats wrong. He said na naguguluhan daw siya.
We talked but our conversation led to an argument. He said na ayaw niya na.
Thinking na dala lang ng galit un. I said that we'll just talk tomorrow. Pag hindi na mainit ung ulo namin.
The next day we broke up. All he could say was excuses. Parang nag hahanap lang siya ng butas para makipag break sakin. Kaya un, tinapos ko na. Knowing that it would be best for us.

And now. it has been a month after our last breakup.
Minsan namimiss ko din siya. Haha!:)) who can blame me. i really DID love him.
Now eventhough im a bit okay. Sometimes im wondering if it will be possible for him to fall for me over again. Who knows db?:D its summer. anything can happen. :)) <3